Very different, from any other time in my life, loss of family and friends has sadly become a frequent event. From the transition of my sister in June, until now – I’ve comforted more family and friends that I’d admittedly desired – but did it because I cared. The thought that keeps playing in my mind is, “What were their last words?”
When my sister transitioned, it was for most, a typical day. They sent her the “good morning” text messages, and she replied, like normal. I didn’t get a response that day. I felt a little challenged emotionally, but I didn’t let it get the best of me. You see, I’d had a conversation – rather a vivid dream about my sister, and I get to replay her last words in my mind always. Those words – “I’m tired”, where enough for me to know that she was settled emotionally, spiritually and physically to let go. Did I like what I was hearing? No, but I embraced her reality – and began preparing myself for her transition.
Have you had a conversation with a loved one or friend, holding on to their last words? Are you in a place where you need to offer forgiveness to someone who, based on your last words, doesn’t feel loved or appreciated? There are many scenarios, I know, but the bottom line today is – your last words matter. Whether it’s finishing a call, dropping off a loved one to travel, visiting someone in a hospital or institution – how you finish your conversation or interaction with them could be life changing.
Today, speak with compassion, forgiveness and love. Make sure that your last words are seeds of hope for those who receive them.
You’re always looking at me, the glare in your eyes of disdain, what do you want from me? Haven’t you already taken enough from me! Just look at yourself, look at the mess that you’ve caused – you know these things that happened to you are youre fault. You see my pain, yet you insist on torturing me. It doesn’t matter, not anything matters, and no one cares. The pressure, I can’t take the pressure. Just end it – just please finish it! There’s no need for tears, you’re not going to be missed! You’d be better off dead. – written by me in 2014
These words are thoughts of a past in which I thought that life for others would’ve been better if I weren’t around. You see, my silent killer was my reflection – the image of me that I saw. Based on the things that I’d heard over my life by those who said that they loved me; those that I thought I was supposed to trust, I was nothing and was going to be nothing. For many years low self-esteem had tortured me, constantly having me compare myself to others. The difficulty is that for many years during my youth; I was the only “colored” girl in my classes. My hair was different; my size was different, even the way I spoke was different – so imagine the thoughts of rejection that constantly swept through my mind, not just based on my comparisons, but on the things I saw and heard. My perception of my life was worthless! I existed without living.
What captures a mind, especially in the formative years of life that would cause someone to have utter disdain for their life? Jeremiah 1:5 reads, “Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee, and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee; I have appointed thee a prophet unto the nations.” Can you grab hold of this scripture? Can you accept that before you came into the world, God already had a plan for your life? Can you embrace the reality that before the enemy initiated the attack against your life allowing individuals to plant the seeds of destruction – the seeds of death that God intended that you live and not just live but live with purpose?
There was an enemy, a silent killer that was within me, seeking to destroy me before my life could even get started. Have you ever dealt with the enemy (your inner me)? Let’s deal with that silent killer now!
“Be sober, be vigilant; because of your adversary the devil, as a roaring lion, walketh about, seeking whom he may devour:”
1 Peter 5:8 KJV
A segment from My Reality Revealed – A Journey of Empowerment
You are amazing, and a gift to the world! When was the last time you told yourself that, or someone reminded you of your worth? I pose this questions to you today, but also reminding myself. 🙂
In June, I was blessed to travel to Kisumu, Kenya to minister to women and visit children in several schools. This was another life changing opportunity, filled with moments that I will never forget. One of the most memorable moments was participating in a baptism for more than 30 individuals, including my spiritual daughter, Kelia Grose. We had talked about this taking place, but could not have imagined that it would take place.
Be PREPARED! There are moments that are awaiting you, and in this season – you must show up prepared. Your next life changing moment will require the right mindset, conversation, and knowledge. Spend time now to discover, define and develop your individual purpose – if you’re not sure what you’re to fulfill on the earth. It is time to ROAR. Let’s be prepared and ready to make an impact.
Are you struggling with taking your next step into greatness? Are there still stumbling blocks clouding your mind? If you’re in that place, I want you to know that I’ve been there too. When I share with people that I have been Empowered to Empower Others (#E2EO), it’s real. I have faced different types of trauma since childhood, and even today – dealing with the loss of my sister and best-friend. Life happens and brings with it consequences, based on our choices.
Today, I want to invite you to collaborate with me on the journey of transformation. I sense an urgency for many of you to – level up- and you don’t know where to begin. I want to help! Take a few moments and identify those areas in your life that are limiting you and then drop me a message and let’s come up with a strategy to knock those barriers down.
I am transforming daily, and I’m ready for us to do this TOGETHER!
If you’re ready for CHANGE – you’ll receive the Seeds. That phrase may seem a bit direct to a few, but it’s my truth. I’ve experienced days where I felt less than adequate to fulfill my assignment, based on the reactions of the people in my audience. I would watch their non-verbal responses and listen for feedback, which was minimal, and guage my effectiveness. I soon discovered that many that sat at my table, where not assigned to me in this season and they weren’t ready for the seeds of truth, they were only interested in cotton balls.
Today, with no reservations, I fully embrace that I’m assinged to sow seeds of truth into the soil of the souls which are prepared. If you’ve met some resistence in your effort to be, according to your purpose, understand that everyone is not your audience or assignment. Sow your seeds of truth into a prepared place, and watch it grow!
In several of my groups, over the last few weeks we’ve been talking about the need to submit. James 4:7 reads, “Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.” That scripture seems so simplistic in concept, but the reality is that we want to yeild, but we also want to lead.
How many times have you attempted to take situations into your own hands, and it didn’t work? Good, I’m not alone. I recognized while on my journey, that I had to submit to the will of the Father, and reconcile my desires. It was time for me to yeild and trust the process, even when I didn’t understand it.
Today, know that you’re not losing anything by yeilding to God’s plan, you’re actually positioning yourself to win. Today, start digging a little deeper to determine WHY you’re resisting to yeild? You can’t Yeild and lead.
Generally blooms on a tree or bush come forth simultaneously – my blooms are coming forth NOW! I used to be like many others, waiting for the crowd before moving, and often my timing was on a completely different cycle. I want to encourage you today; when it’s time for you to BLOOM – go ahead and Bloom!
There is notthing worse than missing a major opportunity to fulfill a Kingdom assignment, and it’s happened to me more times than I’d like to admit – but no more. My time of transformation is NOW, and for someone reading this, it’s your time too!
Do you believe in yourself? Not just that surface belief, but that deep-down belief, where no one can make you change your mind about your worth? I had a conversation with a few powerful women the other night about their roles in the Kingdom and asked a simple question, “Are you dominating in your sphere of influence?” First, let me clarify a few things. According to the original intent attached to your life, the dominance we are speaking of is to operate in high-level execution – not being in a position to lord over people. Of course, a more in-depth conversation ensued as we defined what dominance was to each of us and how we see it manifest.
We reached a consensus; dominance is an internal emotion that will result in the manifestation of our beliefs concerning ourselves when putting action to that emotion. It would help someone if you pause right here because you thought dominance was only about your ability to overthrow or overtake someone physically, but it’s so much more.
I shared the analogy of a sports game. It’s predicted that there will be some upsets during March Madness this season. How will this happen? My thoughts are that the expected winners will lose because the “underdog” will tap into their beliefs – recognizing that they can win, no matter who the opponent is. That’s a powerful thought! Here’s the truth, we don’t win when we are our opponent.
So let’s go back to the initial question, “Do You believe in yourself?”. When you believe in yourself and utilize the power and authority within you, my friend can dominate your sphere of influence and every aspect of your life. The law of belief lets us know that it becomes our reality when we believe and feel a thing long enough. If you’re ready to dominate, here are a few things to consider:
Dismiss the expectations of others
Change your perspective of limitations
Know that you are impactful
Remember that you’re leading – whether you have the title or not
You can’t give up
If you want to dominate in life, believe in yourself – it can happen!